Our precious baby girl – Ember Jean Roloff – is finally here!!! 7.13 lbs 20.25″ long and born on September 10th.
She is a little over 3 weeks old today, and we are just growing to love her more and more! She’s likes cuddling on our chests, swaying, and when her daddy sings to her! We think she looks like Jeremy so far, but she might have a little glimmer of strawberry in that peach fuzz hair. Only time will tell! We are still hoping for the boing boing curls though;)
Wow. Natural labor was the hardest thing I’ve ever done, (more on that in a different blog post – so make sure you’re subscribed to my blog!) but holding our baby for the first time was undeniably the most empowering and rewarding moment of my life. Of course, I wrote “always more” on my hand when I went into labor, but never have these words carried more meaning. The whole time I just kept reminding myself of the MORE that was within me through Christ – that I could keep enduring, surrendering, trusting, and pushing more and more because of Christ’s strength within me. The second she was out of my belly and into my arms, the tears of pain ceased, and Jeremy and I looked at our daughter and each other with tears of uncontainable joy.
We are in complete awe of the miracle of life, and feeling so blessed to be entrusted with such a beautiful daughter. We can’t stop staring at her! Also, this whole parenthood thing has made me fall so much more in love with Jeremy, it’s wild.
Sweet little Ember, may you always be a light in the darkness, glowing in all you do, enduring, fierce, and hard to extinguish;) May you always believe in the more that is within you, and when stoked and kindled by your Creator – may you be able to burn and glow even MORE than you ever could on your own. We love you so much Ember Jean Roloff. Thank you for making us “mom and dad”
I had a pretty great pregnancy and incredible labor/delivery experience, but to be honest, these first few weeks of motherhood have been TOUGH. The “fourth trimester” hit me hard. The first 24 hours with Ember were bliss, but after that, it was as if I went back into labor again… I was well prepared for the pain and suffering that comes with childbirth, but I was not prepared for the pain and suffering that comes afterwards. I got all the things… the common “TMI” postpartum hurts, along with severe engorgement, too much milk, not enough milk, blisters, bruises, clogged ducts, and mastitis. I can’t believe I’m saying this, but the pain that I’ve experienced while breastfeeding has been comparable to unmedicated labor contractions…
Inevitably, all of this has left me feeling like I am failing my baby, frustrated, discouraged, and heart ached. But even though the tearful sleepless nights persist, so will I. I will continue to pour myself out in sacrificial love for this baby girl who makes every hurt worth enduring. And not by my strength or striving, but in Christ alone. I’ve been humming these lyrics while I nurse and pump through the nights, “Lord, I come, I confess, Bowing here I find my rest, Without You I fall apart, You’re the One that guides my heart, Lord I need you oh I need you, Every hour I need you, My one defense, my righteousness, Oh God, how I need you…” Motherhood is already refining me so much and I am blessed.
Oh, and Ember is already lovin her “Always more milk” onesie! Get yours >>here<<
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